My Fourth Funeral

My Aunt Susan, My Grandma Ermas, My cousin's grandpa. I didn't cry at those funerals, but I know I'm going to cry at this one. I'm crying right now and I just got the news. When Audry died i cried, because I knew her and she was awesome. This death doesn't even come as a surprise to me, and yet i can't believe it.

I cant stop crying and I don't know how Mom's doing right now. I can't imagine how she's feeling right now. She's lost two siblings and she's only in her 40s. Aunt Susan killed herself and Uncle Dale basically drank himself to death.

Me and mom are going to drive up to Michigan on Thursday and attend the funeral. I won't be at school Thursday and Friday.

It's so bright outside. The birds are singing. The plants are dying on the windowsill. i understand the feeling now.